Nov 07 2006

Closed Book

Published by Donna at 10:39 pm under mind

October 30, 2006. The date will be forever etched into my mind. It is the date of the very last day of instruction for my degree program. It marks the completion of an on-again, off-again relationship that I’ve had with school since 1995. I am now waiting for the last grade to post so that I may apply for my diploma. I won’t have “closure” until that piece of paper is finally in my possession, tangible evidence of the countless hours spent reading, writing, working on projects, and meeting with study groups. The last of which was perhaps the most challenging for me.

In hindsight, school has stretched me in ways that I had not expected. Academics were never really much of a problem, but working with learning teams always seemed to be a challenge. In everything, you will have your share of good and bad apples. It’s just the luck of the draw that determines whether working with your study group will be a pleasurable experience – or whether you will feel compelled to yank out your hair in big clumps by the end of the course. Dealing with “adult learners” provides its own set of challenges. In a typical university scenario, students are generally dedicated to school full-time, possibly holding down part-time jobs to support themselves. With adult learners, school can often seem more like an after-thought. Your classmates, like you, often have demanding full-time jobs, children, and other activities and concerns that take priority over school. Many times, it shows: in the caliber of their work, the amount of effort they put forth (or lack thereof), the reading that went undone, the assignments that were turned in late, or going incommunicado for days. Certainly, if homework was an independent activity, this wouldn’t be a problem. However, when 30% of one’s grade depends on the ability to turn in a cohesive group project – the reliability and cooperation from teammates becomes crucial. Needless to say, my experience with groups ran the gamut from excellent (go Team C!) to absolutely nightmarish. I am so grateful that the team that supported me through the bulk of the toughest part of the program was comprised of competent, cooperative and caring individuals. I couldn’t have asked for a better group of guys to partner with. We still swap e-mail with the 4 original members periodically and it’s nice to know that they’re all doing well and went on to obtain their degrees. I was the last.

Looking back at the whole experience, I sometimes wonder if this investment was worth my time and money. And boy, it was a LOT of money. Although I may forget nearly everything I studied in those 11 years as a college student, it wasn’t the knowledge gained that was of worth – but the attainment of a goal and seeing it through to completion. Of course, there is also the hope that the degree will also help me work my way back into my field. Someday… hopefully sooner rather than later.

The other day, talking to Mahealani, the subject of school came up. She’s currently in a Marine Biology Masters program. “It must be nice to be done,” she said, almost wistfully. “It’s wonderful. I still can’t believe it,” I said. “When I come home from work, I still have this feeling like I need to do something – homework, reading, a project… When I realize that I don’t have anything due – well, it’s an odd feeling.” She nodded with understanding, “when you get over that feeling, you’ll know when it’s time to go back to school.” Then, she went on to explain how she felt after completing her Bachelors degree and the nocturnal epiphany she had that prompted her to continue her pursuit for further education.

Honestly, I don’t think any epiphanies of that sort are in my future.

I do, however, have intentions of continuing my education – but not through obtaining a Masters in Information Technology. I’d like to expand my knowledge of writing, photography, graphic design, video editing, and the Japanese language. The possibilities excite me and give me the zest for learning that I lacked as I was going through my degree program.

It’s nice to have my life back. What shall I do today?

16 Responses to “Closed Book”

  1. erynon 08 Nov 2006 at 9:23 am

    Congratulations to you!! I have labored with you over the years, as a fellow full-time student and full-time employee, and now we are finishing at the same time. I take my oral exam to get my Masters degree in Literature in 2.5 hrs. I can’t imagine the relief I will feel if and when I pass. Anyway, I’m so happy for you, and happy for your hubby that he will get to see more of you now!

  2. brion 08 Nov 2006 at 10:51 am

    congratulations donna! i give you lots of credit for hanging in there for the long haul. go buy yourself something fun and impractical. you deserve it!

  3. Aprilon 08 Nov 2006 at 11:42 am

    Well I am so proud of you for completing your degree program, despite all the challenges you have faced and all the obstacles that threatened to slow you down. You are truly an inspiration!

    Congratulations, Donna!

  4. winnieon 08 Nov 2006 at 12:04 pm

    congrats on this big accomplishment! i so commend you for your dedication! definitely treat yourself to something nice like a day at the spa or a lovely new bag. ok ok, that’s MY own desire. :p

  5. Mahealanion 08 Nov 2006 at 8:21 pm

    Great job Donna. The pursuit of education can be anything that inspires you and motivates you. Often, these things are masked by daily obstructions that void creativity. I am happy to hear that you will continue your educational path in the things that move your heart. Keep in mind, these things will challenge you, too…have fun!

  6. marson 08 Nov 2006 at 9:41 pm

    Props to you Donna! I give credit to anyone who can go to school while holding down a full time job AND having a life. You are a good example for all of us. So do you plan on framing and showing off that piece of paper? =)

  7. Mark From Hawaiion 08 Nov 2006 at 9:53 pm

    Woot woot! Congratulations Donna! I’ve no doubt that you will be successful in anything you put your heart and mind to.

  8. zayon 10 Nov 2006 at 6:01 am

    congrats!! what a huge accomplishment. i feel your pain. i am finally graduating this december 16th…six years to obtain my degree while i worked.

    do you even know what you are going to do with all that extra time that was taken up by school? :)

  9. jennion 10 Nov 2006 at 2:17 pm

    congrats!!! now go watch some tv or play sudoku!

  10. Richieon 10 Nov 2006 at 6:15 pm

    Omedetou gozaimasu! Hmm, what to do with some of that extra time? :P

  11. lindyon 10 Nov 2006 at 10:53 pm

    congrats, donna !! you’ve really achieved a huge accomplishment, with the new job and keeping up with your studies, not to add the home life too ! you are really super girl .. that’s better than wonder woman, right?? haha!
    well done!! i’m very proud of you! gee, when i graduated college, i thought “yeah, no more studies!!” and you want to still learn!! but at least, its stuff that you WANT to learn ! way to go, girl !!

  12. Derekon 11 Nov 2006 at 2:37 am

    Congratulations on this chapter.

    Hmm. Sounds like you’ll have extra time to take even nore pictures! ;-)

  13. Fionaon 11 Nov 2006 at 6:28 pm

    Congratualations! I think I shall follow your model of discipline in order to finish my degree! Cheers! :)

  14. sharion 11 Nov 2006 at 9:34 pm

    Congratulations Sis!…Now you have more time to relax, and enjoy…HUGS

  15. Watari Goroon 15 Nov 2006 at 4:00 pm

    Congratulations, Donna!

    I echo what Lindy said! You showed superhuman power holding it all together with the many challenges of a new job, your studies, home life and just life in general!

    If the many “Ultramen” had a sister, you’d be her!
    Like the Americanized version of Ultraman Tiga said, “because sometimes, ‘Super’ isn’t enough”!

    As we say in our suit acting group, “Omede-TOH!!!” ^^

  16. Donnaon 15 Nov 2006 at 7:07 pm

    Thanks, everyone, for your well-wishes! At least you won’t have to read my complaints about school anymore, right? :)

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