Aug 05 2005
Back To School
Next Tuesday marks my first day back in school after a heavenly 3-month hiatus. I am SO not looking forward to it.
Gone is my zeal for school. Suffering from a major case of Senioritis, I just want to get it over with. 6 more classes on my schedule. None of them pertain to my area of study since I’ve already finished my coursework. Now I’m just resigned to taking those bogus classes needed to complete the required number of credits to obtain my degree.
Perhaps I’m suffering from a cumulative fatigue, amassed from years of going 120 mph in a 55 mph zone. Maybe it’s just laziness. I just don’t feel motivated to spend 4 hours in a classroom after a 8-hour work day, reading material I am not even remotely interested in, studying, writing papers, meeting with a study group, preparing projects and making presentations. Even more distressing than all of that is having to be the “new kid” in class after class, waiting to see whether a kind-hearted study group will adopt me. It’s like grade school and being the last kid to be picked for the dodge ball teams.
This weekend, I will focus on realigning my negative attitude toward school. I’d like to start this endeavor on the right foot and it won’t happen with a negative outlook. Any thoughts on how to help me “get happy” about going back to school?
A 30-something Christian girl, blissfully wedded to her perfect match (the yang to her yin) of 14 years. A new mom to her miracle baby, born on October 4, 2008. Living life in Hawaii, less than 5 miles from her hometown, a slave to her mortgage payment, but seeking balance in her pursuit of family, faith, recreation, and rest.
I loved to shop at the campus bookstore or at my favorite stationary store before the start of a new semester. The smell of new textbooks, deciding on which supplies (especially pens and mechanical pencils) to buy, always seemed to do the trick.
OMG. I am such a stationery freak, too! When I used to work across the street from Hopaco, I used to buy pens and mechanical pencils whenever I would get stressed. (I even wrote about it in my old blog in an entry called “Comfort in Office Supplies.” haha
Too bad we don’t have cool stationery stores like they do in Japan. That would certainly cure my “back to school blues”!
I like the obnoxious 10 color pens. Nothing like clicking frantically to color-code your notes.
You know what I did my last semester? Ditched. A lot. And consistently forgot to read the chapters, or if I opened a book I read the wrong sections. I wanted out, bigtime.
Funny thing was, that was the only quarter I got straight A’s. Just giving up, and not worrying about my grades, freed my mind in some weird way so whatever I did absorb when I showed up for class or opened the book stuck.
So, I recommend apathy
first… thank you for your lovely comment on my xanga blog… my granny is feeling better. (smile)
i find the above entry funny… just the fact that so far, you have had the ambition and desire to pursue such a level of academics brings admiration on my part.
one thing i miss about college: being able to use my mind and the task of writing papers to develop my personal writing to what it is today.
deep… honest… and expressive.
any thoughts?
haha…I thought I was a pen freak…When I was attending KCC I use to visit the book store and see pretty pens, and I would end up buying them…after awhile K would be like why do you need so many pens for…LOL…
i know i’m a little late here; but, congratulations for returning to school. i know how you feel, this summer was my first class in years.